For You

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I lost a friend in 1997. I was supposed to read this at her funeral, but I was not able to go there, because I did not want to see her body lying in a coffin. I was 16 when I wrote this for her. Maybe you will be able to connect through the loss of a loved one.

For You
Everyday I reminisce
about what happened in the past
wishing hoping praying
the killing would not last
memories of yesterday
holding me back
from continuing my way

I have to be strong and hold on
but I can't come to realize that you are gone
never a chance to say goodbye
only the hellos as I walked by

You were a friend to  me and the rest
you seemed to always smile
and look your best
why didn't this happen to someone else?
why to anyone? Why to you?

A lot have cried and didn't know what to do
I tried to be better
tried to be stronger
although sometimes I didn't want to live any longer
I try to stay OK, but I can't take it
I don't know how many more days
I'll be able to make it

A lot of changes are to be made
unfortunately, I will not become as "sharp as a steel blade"
I don't know if I will see tomorrow
but I hope it is not filled with sorrow

I have to hold on and live by what I know
but these feelings I can never let go
you're not truly gone
cause you are within our hearts
everyone will have different memories
of you in different parts

I can't change the past
but I can uplift my fall
everyone should wake up
because this is a wake up call

different occasions I would love for you to attend
but we all know
forever has an end

In memory of Nielsa Mason
1/28/1981-4/28/1997

Comments

  1. Mesha R.January 16, 2014 at 6:49 PM

    Losing a friend is hard. I could feel ur passion in this.

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  2. Gennie PollockJanuary 24, 2014 at 5:36 PM

    Very emotion filled.

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